I'm back!

I'm back people!

okay so I know i've been a little (a lot) m.i.a but, Its because I was.. bored and in a writers jam! If you don't know I write fanfictions! Yeah I know.. ZOMG! what you do yep i do! You can read them at www.fanfiction.net/-giveintime so yeah read those i guess!
til next time,

TA TAH!

Divorce..

No one gets a happy ending..

Having no clue as to what happened this morning.
I wasnt shocked when my parents where argueing,
but what was shocking was the fact that there where
divorce papers on the table or my mother screaming of how
she had enough. So i write this because im not sure
what to do or say or even type. My mind is in a jumble
and im so confused..
ill write more later

Composing...

Mozart said nothings to composing. . .

Having finished my Spring break as of yesterday I was ready for School. I changed my hair color and my wardrobe i was finally being noticed.. by people who are somewhat normal and like me! my excitement came to a sudden hault when so-so sat by us at lunch..SOMEONE SMITE ME! Why is it when I finally get friends something bad happens.Am I doomed to be forever alone? i mean seriously why me, this is not what i wanted, i wanted to have a normal highschool life. Que dramatic music, he sat by me and talked to me like we knew each other for years. I walked away and sat in the library for a while. And ill stay there for a while..
So til next time dear viewers ..Welcome to my life,
Sincerely,
Give in time

Talk is for... People who know what their saying

Damn you tongue...

Talking has never been my strong point, i'm a writing kind of girl talking scares the living crap outta me.So when a person walks up to me and says hi, i stare at them until they leave. Because im not a talker since half my highschool and middleschool was lived talking to no one and sitting alone. I was unprepared for when someone does strike a conversation ( hences the staring) I switch to panic mode. My brain screams "stay end the cycle of lonerness" my body screams " stare at them!" and i got with my body, Thank you body. My mother claims its not her fault, it is all my life my mother has scared me into thinking everyone is a serial killer and im their next victim, only to later ask why i am friendless.. really, really mom!
Anyway guys sorry this is short, ( if your reading this comment a smiley, just so i know lol) I have to leave

So until next time dear readers.. Welcome to my life..
Sincerely,
Give in time.

M.I.A now B.I.A

I'm so lost not even google maps could find me..

Having lost my self esteem recently .. I've come to realise a plethora of things such as... women should not be allow to interact with other women.. It's down right horrid, also so-so has got to leave me alone, he's ruining my chances of making normal friends. Plus causing me to be the target of many death stares.. hmm maybe i should push him down the staires? Anyway the story of how i lost my self-esteem is quiet.. pathetic, it touch one comment from some random idoit of my hell I call school to make me want to sink into a hole and die..or maybe him. "oh Z yeah shes a total bitch" me a bitch please, im to invisible to be one! Honestly i would have kissed so -so for sticking up from.. but than it would be like kissing every other girl he kissed.. no thanks. I mean sure i treated him like a waste but, it was because he's popular and im .. me. And this is not a highschool movie.. its real life . And so with those words i crawled into a black abyss.. until springbreak. so for now im back and ready to blog.. or fall asleep watching Titanic...
So until next time dear readers.. Welcome to my life,

Sincerely,
Give in time

unable to form words

Horomones please... stop!

Knowing that horomones are the number one cause of humiliation,I choose to stay away from the male population and just about everyone else.Teenage boys scare me, with their random thoughts and roaming hands. I shudder at the thought, but yes theres always a but..I talked to a guy.. and he was nice and funny and click alot ( on his mouse). Now im not saying anything its just we could be friends. Which would make my friend list at a 3. Highschool offically sucks.. i blame teen movies. After my offical melt down last night i had time to relise that life was horribly dull. And my highschool years were going to be the things i remember.... what joy.

So til next time dear readers...
Welcome to my life..

Sincerly,
Give in time

Blown out of epic proportion

The universe hates me...

Do parents not understand what goes through a teen's mind? The simple words i hate this become ultered and misused, causing me to fill uterly angst and full of self hate. The fact that im tear staind and cover girl lied about their "water proof" mascara confuses me. But than again what doesnt in my family, Theirs nothing to do here or even find, im a lonely freak with only two friends and a little mistake blown out of proportion. Yes i was caught smoking a cigeratte but to loom that over my head til the day i die is really not a great way to build my selfasteam or my confidence. given my sistuation I feel cheated, i mean yes i did a small mistake does that mean you bring it up evertime i say or do something. I get it i messed up but shouldnt i be able to redeem myself or is it too much to ask for. Why am i the only one that gets the third degree, i mean my brother recked our car(S) and he never heard them saying anything about it after it happened. Im constinly reminded of my mistake not even getting into yale would bring it down.

I feel tired, lonely, and confused its weird im a teenager but with out the teen im just that a girl with a limited right and no one to back me up.. Help me i feel trapped in this world. why is it hard , i mean can i just do something to make me seem a little cooler, i have no friends or life, my day (if not in school) consist of me staying in my bedroom stairing at my wall or sleeping..

until next time dear readers...Welcome to my life..
Sincerly,
Give in time