I'm back!

I'm back people!

okay so I know i've been a little (a lot) m.i.a but, Its because I was.. bored and in a writers jam! If you don't know I write fanfictions! Yeah I know.. ZOMG! what you do yep i do! You can read them at www.fanfiction.net/-giveintime so yeah read those i guess!
til next time,

TA TAH!

Divorce..

No one gets a happy ending..

Having no clue as to what happened this morning.
I wasnt shocked when my parents where argueing,
but what was shocking was the fact that there where
divorce papers on the table or my mother screaming of how
she had enough. So i write this because im not sure
what to do or say or even type. My mind is in a jumble
and im so confused..
ill write more later

Composing...

Mozart said nothings to composing. . .

Having finished my Spring break as of yesterday I was ready for School. I changed my hair color and my wardrobe i was finally being noticed.. by people who are somewhat normal and like me! my excitement came to a sudden hault when so-so sat by us at lunch..SOMEONE SMITE ME! Why is it when I finally get friends something bad happens.Am I doomed to be forever alone? i mean seriously why me, this is not what i wanted, i wanted to have a normal highschool life. Que dramatic music, he sat by me and talked to me like we knew each other for years. I walked away and sat in the library for a while. And ill stay there for a while..
So til next time dear viewers ..Welcome to my life,
Sincerely,
Give in time

Talk is for... People who know what their saying

Damn you tongue...

Talking has never been my strong point, i'm a writing kind of girl talking scares the living crap outta me.So when a person walks up to me and says hi, i stare at them until they leave. Because im not a talker since half my highschool and middleschool was lived talking to no one and sitting alone. I was unprepared for when someone does strike a conversation ( hences the staring) I switch to panic mode. My brain screams "stay end the cycle of lonerness" my body screams " stare at them!" and i got with my body, Thank you body. My mother claims its not her fault, it is all my life my mother has scared me into thinking everyone is a serial killer and im their next victim, only to later ask why i am friendless.. really, really mom!
Anyway guys sorry this is short, ( if your reading this comment a smiley, just so i know lol) I have to leave

So until next time dear readers.. Welcome to my life..
Sincerely,
Give in time.

M.I.A now B.I.A

I'm so lost not even google maps could find me..

Having lost my self esteem recently .. I've come to realise a plethora of things such as... women should not be allow to interact with other women.. It's down right horrid, also so-so has got to leave me alone, he's ruining my chances of making normal friends. Plus causing me to be the target of many death stares.. hmm maybe i should push him down the staires? Anyway the story of how i lost my self-esteem is quiet.. pathetic, it touch one comment from some random idoit of my hell I call school to make me want to sink into a hole and die..or maybe him. "oh Z yeah shes a total bitch" me a bitch please, im to invisible to be one! Honestly i would have kissed so -so for sticking up from.. but than it would be like kissing every other girl he kissed.. no thanks. I mean sure i treated him like a waste but, it was because he's popular and im .. me. And this is not a highschool movie.. its real life . And so with those words i crawled into a black abyss.. until springbreak. so for now im back and ready to blog.. or fall asleep watching Titanic...
So until next time dear readers.. Welcome to my life,

Sincerely,
Give in time

unable to form words

Horomones please... stop!

Knowing that horomones are the number one cause of humiliation,I choose to stay away from the male population and just about everyone else.Teenage boys scare me, with their random thoughts and roaming hands. I shudder at the thought, but yes theres always a but..I talked to a guy.. and he was nice and funny and click alot ( on his mouse). Now im not saying anything its just we could be friends. Which would make my friend list at a 3. Highschool offically sucks.. i blame teen movies. After my offical melt down last night i had time to relise that life was horribly dull. And my highschool years were going to be the things i remember.... what joy.

So til next time dear readers...
Welcome to my life..

Sincerly,
Give in time

Blown out of epic proportion

The universe hates me...

Do parents not understand what goes through a teen's mind? The simple words i hate this become ultered and misused, causing me to fill uterly angst and full of self hate. The fact that im tear staind and cover girl lied about their "water proof" mascara confuses me. But than again what doesnt in my family, Theirs nothing to do here or even find, im a lonely freak with only two friends and a little mistake blown out of proportion. Yes i was caught smoking a cigeratte but to loom that over my head til the day i die is really not a great way to build my selfasteam or my confidence. given my sistuation I feel cheated, i mean yes i did a small mistake does that mean you bring it up evertime i say or do something. I get it i messed up but shouldnt i be able to redeem myself or is it too much to ask for. Why am i the only one that gets the third degree, i mean my brother recked our car(S) and he never heard them saying anything about it after it happened. Im constinly reminded of my mistake not even getting into yale would bring it down.

I feel tired, lonely, and confused its weird im a teenager but with out the teen im just that a girl with a limited right and no one to back me up.. Help me i feel trapped in this world. why is it hard , i mean can i just do something to make me seem a little cooler, i have no friends or life, my day (if not in school) consist of me staying in my bedroom stairing at my wall or sleeping..

until next time dear readers...Welcome to my life..
Sincerly,
Give in time

Post apocaliptic

Is it me?...

The universe is not in my favor, my horoscope lied and im no longer "on track" my mind is no longer processing my thoughts after watching an entire season of Awkaward the main girl "jenna" was epic, and so sterotypical im seriously, two guys fighting over you? bull shit (pardon my mouth) really. I get it the whole oh my! he's fighting for her its nice its hot! and than they have random sex! I mean sex in school? please ...

im not one to talk since im single and no one wants to mingle.. but life has a way of screwing you over like being stuck helping out in the school library while watching people (so-so form the last post) swabing spit or dry humping each other. its not my way of having fun but hey at least their having .. erhm fun? I was stuck stamping due dates on books glaring at nothing.. "hey..Z right?" right? Mr. Right? gosh it sucks butt
"yo" yo wait to go. My life sucks "umm.. books," books no really geeh i thought he was smart. "yes go away" once again my socialism is at a well done i should pat myself on the back. "umm right?" right right right, bloody fucking right! my life is done over and dead, must he i just want peace.. and friends that arent popular just nice. friends that wont allow me to get glares from girls that are to popular.

til next time dear readers.... Welcome to my life...
Sincerly,
Give in time.

Dr. pepper save me!

After school i wait for my mother to arrive. Alone. By myself as usual, well i thought it was. It was like in those overly dramatic teen movies where the boy is waiting and the "outcast" girl is waiting as well for a ride. He'd probably start off with "Hey.. Your waiting for a ride too?" and the girl would blush and look conctipated (kristen stewart) and reply with a timid "Y-yeah" and they'd ride off into the sunset with hearts in their eyes. Mine was .. different it went like this. "hey im so-so" ( i will not give out details) " you can see me?" he laughed probably thinking its a joke until he saw my dead serious face. "yeah your in half my classes.. Right?"  "im in all your classes" it went silent and awkward silence with no way of saving the conversation ( if you can call it that) from its ultimate death. Time passed and we stayed like that , until his mom picked him up "Bye ill talk to you again..Right?" what was with him and saying right?  "its not like i have a life," and another laugh and he was gone. leaving me to wait for my mother, who i think forgets she has a daughter at times.
But my invisiblty level is at a high but now all time high.. who knows maybe i'll get my highschool fantasy?

While typing this i feel like its okay to share because none of you know me or even care to know. My thoughts are jumbled in my brain.. and thearpy is to costy and im not made of money.. simply cells, organs, skin , and bone, etc. (my attempt at comedy ) like i said theirs reasons i dont have many friends. but til next time..Dear readers.. welcome to my life..
Sincerly,
Give in time..

Long live highschool.. Not

Expressing Things I should Have Long Ago...

this may not be noticed of even reconized but, I need to let it out. And by that i need to tell you or who ever about me.
My name is not important at this moment, im female and confused about this crazy thing i call life, im a plain jane with nothing to brag about. Im random and somewhat childish and maybe thats why no one wants to be friends and im somewhat fine with it... okay im not, im not fine with this i'm freaked out. highschool is not what i wanted or thought. I thought that maybe if i had friends ( My friend population is at a two) ones that didnt judge me or find ways to critizes me , i'd be happy but, life has a weird way of screwing you over . My thought of having friends ment having fun and laughing at the cool kids, or even just chilling. But now that im in a new school.. Im invisible.. And its not the invisible that one day i'll be popular and have a plethera of friends. Seeing as of listening to men talk about sex and their life and them not knowing i'm here.. I'll say my invisiblity is at a high.. My dear readers...
Welcome to my Life
sincerly,
Give`In`time..